Sometimes you’ve got to fake yourself out. I’m fortunate enough to know that I’m rad, now. And these are the kinds of things I tell myself so that I do. My life sucks. I’m still […]
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shakeI shake it off, I shake it off! Taylor Swift, Shake it Offmy theme song
taKin’ feBreze to my stinKin’ thinKin’
with a fuN “what these 12 days of clean time gave to me”
from Hazeldon Betty Ford Foundation. reblogged from christophermturnercheck out his site MY LIFE AND OTHER SORDID TALES Saturday, June 8, 2019 Today’s Gift from Hazelden Betty Ford Foundation is: Those who contemplate the beauty of […]
Forcing myself to spend time awake and involved in my day. My body craving sleep and pulling me toward hibernation.I fight it. Day 2 I felt fine for most, worked an extra 3 hours and […]
Today is the dayTo make a changeTo take a chanceTo leap with faithTo keep my mind safeTo ask for helpTo task my.selfAllay all doubt today They said it works.I read it works.I tried my way.They […]
It could never happen to you.
You’re fine, you’ll survive another go.
Until you don’t.
& a personal experience
I want to write. My ideas don’t want to be written.My synapses are missing their marks.My brain is like a stubbed toe, pulsating life but producing nothing. I have words though. I’ve been writing lines […]
Daily Reflection […]
NA . Meeting One Who’s an addict?What is the NA program?Why are we here?How it works (the stEPS)Twelve TraditionsDaily MeditationWe do recover. Living Clean. 1983 more will be revealed we grow as individuals & […]
I think at some point I said I wanted to feel things now. That I was ready to feel for real. . . I take it back.I don’t want to feel. I broke down yesterday […]
My mind is in a positive swirl of colors today.It is a weird surreal unbalance to be in.I don’t feel bad, at all, I feel really good but not correct. Oh well, I enjoy colorful […]
I love the smell of rain after a couple weeks without it. It’s comforting and refreshing. I also just love the rain! Washingtonian born and raised so I’m in the right state, although there are […]
My girls have been through so much turmoil in the past few years because of my poor choices and addiction. Still today I was amazed, touched, and reminded of what is truly important when I […]
I feel my feels and when I’m ready… I dust myself off and step back in the ring a little more prepared. Max robes, jesscape.com Until just recently I hadn’t heard that saying to “feel […]
I don’t want to change the world.I have no expectation of great fame or fortune in my life.I just want my piece of the world happy and content and to be the best me I […]
I Am Your Disease You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend,Wishes of misery and heartache I send,I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees,I’m the devil inside you, I […]
3- and 4-word positive sayings Live, Laugh, Learn, Love FaceEverythingAndRecover F.E.A.R. Well that was fun. Talk at you tomorrow!!Detective Pikachu matinee! whoop! whoop!
Loving this word: Perspicacitya penetrating discernment —a clarity of vision or intellect which provides a deep understanding and insight. Perspicacityis an abstract noun describing a certain capacity of a certain capability. (Such an awesome sentence […]
Step1 :: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable. Part1:Powerlessness This is a definite tough place to start for me. I’ve always felt that I consciously made my […]
I feel trapped.It is like I know the right things to do but the wrong thing keeps pulling me back in.I’ve been addicted to something since I was 15 and started smoking cigarettes and weed.Then […]
I’m tired.I didn’t get hired.Got a new job. It starts at 2:15 in the am.Glad to have a job.Sad that it is the worst shift.Still sober.Trying hard. They say that time changes things, but you […]
I grieve for my Madness Now it’s so calm and still Everything’s so dull compared to When I was ill… I Grieve For My Madness — Emma Scarr There is a fine line between genius and […]
Going down! Well, coming down, hard. I decided to finish off the last of what I had cause I’m a sucker for punishment. It ended up going through Monday night. Then, to show me just […]
Watching a new (new to me) show Crazy Ex Girlfriend and it is full of really poignant life lessons and introspective realizations while still being lighthearted and hilarious. I have a love-hate relationship with the […]
Prepare for your my future? Lately, I have been planning (and failing to accomplish) small weekly goals and setting a task to achieve daily (blogging every day! I will get there) to feel myself progressing. […]
Eeeek!8 days I have let lapse without an update anywhere.My bad! Have faith I will get better the more sober I get.I am still sober.I feel like I’ve lost my creative thinking part of my […]