i'm happiLy me in spite of my circumstances
underestimate me please this'll be fun
i've got no time for playing games except scrabble, munchkins, and scattergories so be real or leave me be
1 + 1 + 1 makes us and we is all I need (+ auntie Aj)
Writing ideas: in 1 paragraph, if a stubbed little toe could tell the rest of your body what it was feeling what would it say?If you only had 1 sentence to speak to your 8 year old self what would it be?If you had to make up 1 reason […]
It could never happen to you.
You’re fine, you’ll survive another go.
Until you don’t.
& a personal experience
I want to write. My ideas don’t want to be written.My synapses are missing their marks.My brain is like a stubbed toe, pulsating life but producing nothing. I have words though. I’ve been writing lines of words starting with words starting with the letter “a” through the letter […]
Daily Reflection May 22 Step One […]
NA . Meeting One Who’s an addict?What is the NA program?Why are we here?How it works (the stEPS)Twelve TraditionsDaily MeditationWe do recover. Living Clean. 1983 more will be revealed we grow as individuals & as a fellowship sharing, caring, & service face life on its own terms […]
I think at some point I said I wanted to feel things now. That I was ready to feel for real. . . I take it back.I don’t want to feel. I broke down yesterday over my situation with my youngest, Hope, and how I never get to […]
My mind is in a positive swirl of colors today.It is a weird surreal unbalance to be in.I don’t feel bad, at all, I feel really good but not correct. Oh well, I enjoy colorful days on occasion, I think it is a way for my mind to […]
My boost in energy the past few days, which I think was due to my wonky work schedule, has come an end. At work today I heard an awesome song that has so many great lines. I feel like she’s telling my story and my change in attitude […]
I love the smell of rain after a couple weeks without it. It’s comforting and refreshing. I also just love the rain! Washingtonian born and raised so I’m in the right state, although there are states with so much more rain than this “rainy state.” My energy level […]
My girls have been through so much turmoil in the past few years because of my poor choices and addiction. Still today I was amazed, touched, and reminded of what is truly important when I read the inscriptions on their cards they gave me. Hope, 7: Happy Mother’s […]
I feel my feels and when I’m ready… I dust myself off and step back in the ring a little more prepared. Max robes, jesscape.com Until just recently I hadn’t heard that saying to “feel your feels [feelings]” and I overheard my daughter, Riley, telling her boyfriend that […]
I don’t want to change the world.I have no expectation of great fame or fortune in my life.I just want my piece of the world happy and content and to be the best me I can be.I don’t want to climb mountains.Often I don’t want to venture outdoors.I […]
I Am Your Disease You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend,Wishes of misery and heartache I send,I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees,I’m the devil inside you, I am your disease. I’ll invade all your thoughts, I’ll take hostage your soul,I’ll […]
3- and 4-word positive sayings Live, Laugh, Learn, Love FaceEverythingAndRecover F.E.A.R. Well that was fun. Talk at you tomorrow!!Detective Pikachu matinee! whoop! whoop!
Loving this word: Perspicacitya penetrating discernment —a clarity of vision or intellect which provides a deep understanding and insight. Perspicacityis an abstract noun describing a certain capacity of a certain capability. (Such an awesome sentence that leaves you wanting more!) I’ve fallen in LOVE I’ve fallen in LOVE […]
Step1 :: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable. Part1:Powerlessness This is a definite tough place to start for me. I’ve always felt that I consciously made my choice to use, and I don’t want to admit I can’t control my […]
StoP giVing A FuCk! Here is an interesting perspective and how to on bettering our lives by not concerning ourselves with material things or other people’s opinions of us.A quote quoted in the post: “Not giving a f*ck does not mean being indifferent, it means being comfortable with […]
Originally posted on Samira's Notebook:
So motivational! Just what I’m needing to get through my 2 am shift when I stayed up too late to sleep beforehand!! (I did sleep a lot today though) Enjoy the healthy vibes!! Click VIEW ORIGINAL POST…it is sharing weird..Check out her page too, she’s very uplifting in […]
I feel trapped.It is like I know the right things to do but the wrong thing keeps pulling me back in.I’ve been addicted to something since I was 15 and started smoking cigarettes and weed.Then it was alcohol.Then it was pain medication, prescribed (haha then not prescribed if […]
I’m tired.I didn’t get hired.Got a new job. It starts at 2:15 in the am.Glad to have a job.Sad that it is the worst shift.Still sober.Trying hard. They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself. Andy Warhol It is difficult to stay […]
I grieve for my Madness Now it’s so calm and still Everything’s so dull compared to When I was ill… I Grieve For My Madness — Emma Scarr There is a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line. Oscar levant I was diagnosed schizophrenic and […]
Going down! Well, coming down, hard. I decided to finish off the last of what I had cause I’m a sucker for punishment. It ended up going through Monday night. Then, to show me just how idiotic that was, I slept through my alarms Tuesday and missed work. […]
I am so impressed by the creative brilliance I stumbled upon and I want to share this incredible voice and artistry with you. “She doesn’t date Or look for a mate She ducks romance With a polite “No Thanks” She’s learnt to avoid The promise of joy […]
Too much coffee keeps you up at night It always pays to be polite A nice walk will cure most ills More than wine or pills… Letter from a Mum to grown up child leaving home — Emma Scarr Inspired to share. Great read!
Watching a new (new to me) show Crazy Ex Girlfriend and it is full of really poignant life lessons and introspective realizations while still being lighthearted and hilarious. I have a love-hate relationship with the main character and the story-line is my worst nightmare come true and biggest […]
Sobriety takes concerted effort. To remain steadfast in your commitment to recovery you must be productive and effective in your sobriety. It is a lifestyle that takes perseverance and determination. You get your life back. Efficiency is putting your best foot forward. Fortitude is the courage to endure. […]
Prepare for your my future? Lately, I have been planning (and failing to accomplish) small weekly goals and setting a task to achieve daily (blogging every day! I will get there) to feel myself progressing. While I have yet to reach any of my goals to their fulfillment […]
Eeeek!8 days I have let lapse without an update anywhere.My bad! Have faith I will get better the more sober I get.I am still sober.I feel like I’ve lost my creative thinking part of my brain. My brain feels a bit mushy the past week. I almost picked […]
Apologies for my lack of posting for yet another sleepy-time week. I have just been overwhelmed with the desire to sleep or lay here doing nothing.So that is a huge issue to overcome – I have absolutely NO MOTIVATION to do ANYTHING! I barely did Easter. We had […]
A man is literally what he thinks.
His character being the complete sum of all his thoughts.
Daily Recovery ReadingsApril 12, 2019 Daily Reflection GIVING UP INSANITY “. . . where alcohol has been involved, we have been strangely insane.” — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 38 Alcoholism required me to drink, whether I wanted to or not. Insanity dominated my life and was the essence of […]