Forcing myself to spend time awake and involved in my day. My body craving sleep and pulling me toward hibernation.I fight it. Day 2 I felt fine for most, worked an extra 3 hours and […]
Month: May 2019
pɐʎ 1 – gOOdbYe yesterdAy
Today is the dayTo make a changeTo take a chanceTo leap with faithTo keep my mind safeTo ask for helpTo task my.selfAllay all doubt today They said it works.I read it works.I tried my way.They […]
my errant muse
Writing ideas: in 1 paragraph, if a stubbed little toe could tell the rest of your body what it was feeling what would it say?If you only had 1 sentence to speak to your 8 year […]
reLapse = end gaMe?
It could never happen to you.
You’re fine, you’ll survive another go.
Until you don’t.
Overdose
Some info
& a personal experience
0.twenty-three :: vocables
I want to write. My ideas don’t want to be written.My synapses are missing their marks.My brain is like a stubbed toe, pulsating life but producing nothing. I have words though. I’ve been writing lines […]
0.twenty-two :: after hours jams
Daily Reflection […]
0.twenty-two :: piqued curiosity | finding N.A.
NA . Meeting One Who’s an addict?What is the NA program?Why are we here?How it works (the stEPS)Twelve TraditionsDaily MeditationWe do recover. Living Clean. 1983 more will be revealed we grow as individuals & […]
0.nineteen – feelings…no thanks!
I think at some point I said I wanted to feel things now. That I was ready to feel for real. . . I take it back.I don’t want to feel. I broke down yesterday […]
0.seventeen – whimsically wandering
My mind is in a positive swirl of colors today.It is a weird surreal unbalance to be in.I don’t feel bad, at all, I feel really good but not correct. Oh well, I enjoy colorful […]
0.sixteen – secrets
My boost in energy the past few days, which I think was due to my wonky work schedule, has come an end. At work today I heard an awesome song that has so many great […]
0.fifteen – the old man [and me] is snoring!
I love the smell of rain after a couple weeks without it. It’s comforting and refreshing. I also just love the rain! Washingtonian born and raised so I’m in the right state, although there are […]
mommy’s girls
My girls have been through so much turmoil in the past few years because of my poor choices and addiction. Still today I was amazed, touched, and reminded of what is truly important when I […]
Emotionally obtuse, me? It
I feel my feels and when I’m ready… I dust myself off and step back in the ring a little more prepared. Max robes, jesscape.com Until just recently I hadn’t heard that saying to “feel […]
0.eleven – i am me, happily
I don’t want to change the world.I have no expectation of great fame or fortune in my life.I just want my piece of the world happy and content and to be the best me I […]
I AM YOUR DISEASE
I Am Your Disease You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend,Wishes of misery and heartache I send,I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees,I’m the devil inside you, I […]
Simplistic Pleasures
3- and 4-word positive sayings Live, Laugh, Learn, Love FaceEverythingAndRecover F.E.A.R. Well that was fun. Talk at you tomorrow!!Detective Pikachu matinee! whoop! whoop!
0.ten – kindred spirits
Loving this word: Perspicacitya penetrating discernment —a clarity of vision or intellect which provides a deep understanding and insight. Perspicacityis an abstract noun describing a certain capacity of a certain capability. (Such an awesome sentence […]
stEP.1 :: mercy!! Uncle!! I surrender!!
Step1 :: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable. Part1:Powerlessness This is a definite tough place to start for me. I’ve always felt that I consciously made my […]
Reblog: The Simplicity of Happiness
StoP giVing A FuCk! Here is an interesting perspective and how to on bettering our lives by not concerning ourselves with material things or other people’s opinions of us.A quote quoted in the post: “Not […]
RebLog: Healthy Vibes Lesson
Originally posted on Samira's Notebook:
So motivational! Just what I’m needing to get through my 2 am shift when I stayed up too late to sleep beforehand!! (I did sleep a lot today though) Enjoy the healthy vibes!! Click VIEW […]
0.nine – craving change
I feel trapped.It is like I know the right things to do but the wrong thing keeps pulling me back in.I’ve been addicted to something since I was 15 and started smoking cigarettes and weed.Then […]
0.eight – …
I’m tired.I didn’t get hired.Got a new job. It starts at 2:15 in the am.Glad to have a job.Sad that it is the worst shift.Still sober.Trying hard. They say that time changes things, but you […]
reblog: I Grieve For My Madness — Emma Scarr
I grieve for my Madness Now it’s so calm and still Everything’s so dull compared to When I was ill… I Grieve For My Madness — Emma Scarr There is a fine line between genius and […]
0.one mayday! mayday!
Going down! Well, coming down, hard. I decided to finish off the last of what I had cause I’m a sucker for punishment. It ended up going through Monday night. Then, to show me just […]
