day 18 – capricious

I’ll eventually get day 17 up, maybe today probably tomorrow.

I had the best weekend ever with my parents and my girls – parents separately thankfully they’re happily divorced. Now I am exhausted again. I finally woke up for a few days and that is apparently over. I also think I drank too many NOS today and it drained me rather than giving me the energy it boasts to give.

I miss being UP all the time and happy being high. Sobriety is back and forth, up and down, and I don’t like dealing with the tiredness.

I’m going to take a nap now.

Party on, Garth! [without me!!]